first blog.

Welcome to gypsyartlover.com! I’ve come to the blog space to entertain and share my passion for writing and to give more insight on what goes on behind my work. I’ve done a lot of exploring — delving into many topics that help me understand myself and the world around me in a greater way. Some of my favorite subjects — outside of art— are mindfulness & meditation, mental health, and philosophy. In 2021 I started this journey of putting my art out there and OMG I have grown!

I often feel a constant need to strive for something. In the past that has been the honor society, a D1 lacrosse scholarship, popularity… What I realized I needed to strive for was more meaning. We can try to shower ourselves in new achievements, accolades, and measurements that indicate we are “living a good life” but what really indicates a good life is our levels of contentment once all those titles and numbers are washed away.

Once upon a time, my entire life was based on a need to achieve these indications so I could make everyone else proud. I lived a life for someone else, but not for myself. About five years ago I had a major awakening. I was extremely unhappy with the life I was living. I was metaphorically thrown off the cliff of pain and sorrow as the world as I knew it escaped beneath my feet and my previous achievements crashed and burned.

At rock bottom, I reached for my watercolors and I started to paint. It has been a life changing experience to start over in my life. When there is nothing left, all we can do is create to fill in the spaces of what once was. Watercolors, acrylics, markers, spray paints, and oil paints oozed out of my soul onto the blank canvas and I started to create a life worth living. To live a good life can mean many things. For me, life is good as long as I am at peace with myself. And peace is what I achieve when I am painting.